I don’t know how to throw a ball. I wouldn’t be surprised if you were thinking that “everyone knows how to throw a ball”. I can’t throw a softball or baseball. Well, I can throw it, but I can’t throw it to where I want and after every 5 throws, chances are I will throw the ball straight into the ground. It’s actually a little amusing but sometimes quite embarrassing. It’s not that I’m not strong enough. It’s just that I throw it like a football. I can throw a football. But when I throw a softball, I throw it like a football which apparently doesn’t work. I end up putting a football spin on it and I hold the ball with my palm facing myself like how I would throw a football. Anyway, I’m working on throwing the ball accurately and correctly so that I don’t feel so inept whenever I play softball.

Sometimes its frustrating to play a sport like softball because I’m not very good at it. I don’t have confidence and frankly I feel like I should be better. It’s frustrating to know that I’m not very good at it because I feel like my athletic ability should compensate for my lack of skills which it does but only sometimes. Whenever I play softball and mess up because I can’t catch a ball someone threw to me or a ball that comes at me I get really down on myself. Or when I try to throw it to get someone out and it ends up going wild, I feel really really bad. It’s like I should be better, I should be able to do these things, but I can’t. And sometimes I also feel like other people think I should be better at the sport but I’m not and they get frustrated.

Anyway, I did play in a softball game this weekend and it was kind of fun.