It’s interesting to look at thoughts from the past…
2005
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Another year is coming to an end. It can be said again and again and it will still hold true: time flies by quickly. We go through each day and just go through the motions. Have you ever stopped to just think about it? Have you ever thought about how each and every encounter, occasion, thought, moment, feeling, and situation effected you then and affects you now? Think about where you are now, where you are in mind, in spirit, and physically. Every learning experience good or bad has molded you and shaped you and brought you to today. Everything that happened happened for a reason. Your personality, your beliefs, your ideas, they have built up throughout the years and put you here and now.
I usually don’t think of the year going by as from January to December. I always thought about the year going by according to the school year. School starts in September and a whole year has passed when summer is over and school is in session again. Sometimes I think about the year in terms of birthdays. It’s hard for me to think about the year of 2005 starting in January and ending now in December. But I want to think about this year like that. I want to relive the memories so that I can document what I experienced and what I learned this year.
This year has been a learning experience filled with realizations and confirmations.
My reflections of this past year (in no particular order):
-Sometimes you are put in a situation to see how you can deal with it.
-Business has a lot of politics.
-Things happen on the other side of the world that a lot of people are oblivious to.
-I’ll be sad if it makes you happy.
-God makes all things better.
-Drama is apparent in most (but I really want to say ‘all’) people that are in relationships.
-I have to be patient with the things going on in my life.
-I realized that I can convince myself to the point of blurring the lines between reality and dreams.
-Even though I have a lot to deal with, other people have their own problems too.
-I am blessed because I have a great family and great friends.
-Sometimes it does get lonely.
-It is very different to not be in school.
-Getting a good job is not easy.
-People are put in your life for reasons. You just have to figure out what those reasons are.
-You can’t change people but people can change.
-There are more good guys out there than I imagine there to be.
-Sometimes you have to do things even though you don’t want to.
-Sometimes it is better to keep things to yourself.
-Sometimes you have questions but will never find the answers.
-Reading books can actually make time pass enjoyably.
-People come into your lives but its up to you to keep them there when they leave.
-It is hard for me to make friends because I don’t talk to anyone
-Things can always be worse
-Sometimes you have to learn to let go even though you want to hold on so bad.
-Friends like me just the way I am.
-Sometimes people get jealous.
-It is easy to get blindsided.
-Little things to me can mean a lot to someone else.
-Talking to each and every person is a completely different experience.
-There are good days and there are bad.
-Sometimes I need to take care of myself first.
-If something is bothering me it is better to talk about it.
-I don’t express myself enough.
-You can’t change yourself for someone else because it robs you of who you really are.
Life is…
-a struggle to understand
-a struggle to live
-a struggle to accept
Life is also…
-an experience
-a compromise
-a discovery
Goodbye 2005. Welcome 2006. |