Today I felt like throwing it all out the window.  All this..resting business.

Work’s having this awesome obstacle challenge course being built in the parking lot in a couple of weeks and it’s free for employees and friends to participate.  It looks like so much freaking fun and I want to participate so bad.  So add that up to 3 events, 3 FUN events lined up in the coming weeks that I would normally be participating in but can’t because of my stupid injuries.

I’m so close to saying screw it and just participate because I probably could – it’ll just hurt.  I guess that’s what I had done for about 3 months before it got so bad that I couldn’t anymore.  But man, short term gratification seems so much more enticing than long term gratification sometimes.

The sports med people called and booked an appointment for me for xrays and a visit but the next one available isn’t even until more than a month out.  That’s the middle of November, which is too close to January, which is too close for my comfort zone.  AND the doc only put in a referral to have my right ankle checked and not my knee.  HELLO?!  I’m pretty sure nothing is wrong with the bones in my ankle, if there is a bone issue, it’s going to be the knee!  The lady is like, yeah they won’t look at the knee since she just put ankle.  UH, FAIL!!!  So she said she would talk to the doc about the knee.  Sheesh.

I need to try really hard to self preserve but I’m close to giving up.  I almost wanted to cry.  I know.  Excessive and dramatic but I think injury or rather inability to do things you love doing makes you a little depressed, add on pmsing, and rainy weather and you got one messed up person.  =P