I don’t like meetings. I hardly ever say anything in meetings unless necessary (when someone is speaking directly to me). I know its odd. But its just very difficult for me to do. I don’t communicate well verbally. During meetings, sometimes things go on in my head. I’m thinking of the words I would say and they just circle around in my head. But I can’t get them out. People don’t seem to understand what the problem is or why it is so difficult. They tell me to just do it. Just blurt it out. I can’t. It happens not only in meetings but in many other situations. I’ll want to say something and I’m saying it in my head but I can’t say it out loud. I know it looks pretty bad in meetings. Honestly, if I was in a meeting and I saw someone never say anything, I would think that’s odd too. And I know it doesn’t look too good that I never contribute. It’s difficult and I have to force myself a lot of times even to just answer questions directed towards me. But I know I have to work on it. Its harder than you think.