After my poor performance at both practices the other night, W STILL wants me to play.  Wow!  He must really see something that I can’t see.

Man, I played 4 straight days of ball.  2 days of practice, 1 day of pickup, and 1 game tonight.  It actually feels good afterwards, but not during.  At the two practices, I was going to keel over.  Needed an oxygen mask or something.  Wow, I could not run.  I haven’t participated in basketball drills in 10 years!  Yes, literally 10 years.  Nor have I had to do conditioning.  Those full court shooting and passing drills really killed me.

I am easily intimidated.  There are some pretty good girls – some okay ones.  But you know what I don’t like.  I don’t like that people aren’t friendly.  People don’t say hi, people don’t smile.  Why so serious?  Ok, ok, it’s not that I’m friendly either.  But hey, my excuse is that I’m the outsider, it would really really help if people were more welcoming and encouraging.  But some girls look so hard core I just feel like I’m so sucky and shouldn’t be there.  Yes, I do care about what they think.  I’m so afraid of messing up, which would make me look more sucky, that I don’t do anything.  The few shots I took were so far off.

I’m not used to playing this fast speed basketball game where I need to shoot off the dribble, be running, jump stop and pop up.  I’m used to set shooting aka stand there, catch the ball, shoot.  That takes a lot of time, there isn’t a lot of time with these people.  I had so many airballs and ridiculously off (bounce off the side of the backboard) shots that it was embarrassing, I also couldn’t make a layup!  Sheesh.  :(

The other girls, one of the pretty good ones, just brings the ball down as point, pops a 3 at the top of the key.  And she kept doing it too.  Sometimes I wonder if the difference between me and these types of people is that they aren’t afraid to shoot it.  After all, you miss 100% of the shots you don’t take, right?  Sigh.

It’s funny that they also took our photo and put it up on the website when we never even committed to the team!

I’m not even sure about what I want to do.  That’s a problem.  Do I want to play in this thing?  Because clearly, I have an opportunity.  They definitely haven’t found the full talent in SD so it’s pretty open right now.  There are only a few reasons why it would be good to play:  1) exercise like crazy (which I could use), 2) I can say that I played semi-pro ball! (LOL), 3) I could possibly improve my game (maybe).  Reasons to not play:  1) I’m really not that good compared to these people, 2) It’s a huge time commitment, 3) It’s also far!, 4) I’m really big on the buddy system and need either C or K to play too.

I already told W I’m not going to Vegas with them.  He says to still come out and practice.  You know, if I was those other girls, I wouldn’t want the 3 of us to play.  Haha.  Because, don’t you want dedicated people.  People who WANT to be there?  Not a bunch of unsure, question mark people.

Anyway, who knows what’s next.  I really really wish people were friendlier!