The unknown scares me.  A lot.

I’m not sure why but it has always been like that.  I’m a planner.  I like to be in the know.  I like to know what’s going to happen.  I guess I’m a bit of a control freak.  And when I don’t know what’s going to happen, it scares me and it takes a lot of pushing for me to move forward.  That doesn’t mean I don’t ever move.  It just takes some nudging.

I’m about to throw myself into the unknown some more.  And you’ll find that I do intentionally do this on my own sometime.  This is so I can grow.  Difficult situations build character.  Exploration and risks take boldness.  Sometimes it takes doing something uncomfortable to be more comfortable.  Sometimes, I have to venture into the unknown.  And while I may be reluctant to, I know it’s for the better.

Sometimes I just won’t.  And I think it’s okay too.  Sometimes it just takes time.

But right now, right now, I’m throwing myself into the unknown and I’m scared.  I shouldn’t be scared, but I am.  I shouldn’t be scared because I should trust.  Because if it is what God wants, He’ll get me there.  I just need to be reminded of that.  How can you be afraid of something that might be good?