My mental health is being sucked down the drain at a rate faster than I can handle.  This is insane.  Insane.  I can’t do this anymore.  I’m really close to making a very big decision – a decision I never thought I’d make.   I don’t know if it is wise or unwise.  Maybe it is wise.

Maybe I should.  Maybe this is God’s way of telling me to trust Him.

I was so frustrated and distraught today.  I was driving to the beach and just said outloud, “are You here?” – then broke down.

I’m trying to trust and I’m trying to wait on God and it seems to just get harder and harder.

I don’t know what to do…