I can’t believe this day has come.  Tomorrow will probably feel even stranger – a relief.

On my drive home last night I was thinking about a lot of things, about the way I act and portray myself, my character, my work ethic, my words and actions throughout the final days.  One of my guys had asked me if I was going to just go in and peace out.  I said to him, “what do you think?  Have I not been here every single one of these days and for the full day?”

It has been crazy.  Crazy and stressful.  It’s been draining and emotional.  As I thought more and more about the whole situation, I thought, “I don’t do you like you do me.”  As poorly as I have been treated, as difficult of a time you have made for me, I have still given you all of me.  I don’t cheat you, I don’t retaliate, I continue to give you me until the end.  Professionalism, tact, and class until the end.  I will not stoop to your level.  I will follow what I believe is the right thing to do even though you’ve wronged me over and over again.  It’s called grace.  You may not have recognized my efforts and you may not care, but in the end, I have finished well.

If there’s anything I can do, it is to show my guys that I care about them, it is to show them how it’s supposed to be – what it’s like to have someone that genuinely cares.  I hope I have made a difference in their lives.  That they’ll look back and remember something good.  It doesn’t take much to please.

Someone texted me today and said, “I haven’t seen you smile or crack jokes like today in months – good luck with everything.”  Wow, isn’t that sad?  That is SO sad.

It’s nice to know that some people care and will miss me.  Others were upset because they were envious.  They know what they need to do.

I was sad and happy today.  Sad to say goodbye.  Happy to be done.

I didn’t even look back once.  I opened my window, drove off, yelled, “WHOOOO!!  THANK GOD!!” as I drove down the street.  I was so happy I was about to cry.  What a mix of feelings.

The day has come, the day has gone.  I spoke for the masses.  I let them know.  I hope it brings change.  I hope I have inspired movement, change, and realization in so many aspects.  I hope I have impacted people, lives, in a positive way.

I tried my best to finish well.  Finish well.  I couldn’t have gotten this far without Him.  He hears us, He knows our thoughts and desires.  He is faithful, He is good.  Praise God!

Thank you to all who have supported me, encouraged me, prayed for me, and listened to me throughout all the crazy.  Thank you so much – it really really has meant a lot!  :)

This chapter is closed.  On to the next.