It’s strange to think that things people normally do are so difficult for me to do. The thought of and anticipation of things to come really has an effect on me. The thought lingered in the back of my mind all week. I think I spent most of yesterday going through the motions of today in my head. It kind of took me away from the real world. I was just lost in thought, zoned out. And even as I went to bed, I didn’t know if I would make it. And even as my alarm went off this morning, I still didn’t know if I would make it. Somehow I made it. I took a small jump and made it. I was nervous and freaking out just a little bit. But by the end, I was feeling pretty good. It was kind of nice actually. Now to get worked up about the anticipation of the next…