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I Miss Kaiser
I kinda miss Kaiser. That may be surprising to hear as I know some people strongly dislike Kaiser. But my recent experience with Sharp Rees-Stealy hasn’t been impressive or even good to say the least.
Perhaps when I switched insurances, I should have just gone out to some random doctors I could find, but I figured being within some type of “network” like Sharp would be beneficial. It would be similar to Kaiser and Kaiser wasn’t all too bad with the exception of 1 or 2 instances. So I picked Sharp to deal with my hypocrappo and I picked them for my injuries.
This week, my long awaited sports med appointment arrived. They told me to arrive 20 min before my appointment to get xrays done. My appointment was at 9 so I arrived at 8:30am. 30 minutes early. I waited and waited. They were backed up. I didn’t get called in until 9:30am. I saw the doctor and he was like, where are the xrays? I’m like, yeah, I thought I was getting them today. He’s like, I told the front desk to make sure to tell the patients to arrive early for the xrays. “This keeps happening.” Then I put the pieces together. Yes, their front desk had indeed been telling people to come early for xrays and yes people were even arriving early for that. What they neglected to tell the patients was that they needed to go SOMEWHERE ELSE to get the xrays done! Not in the same place. The whole time I had thought it was all together. They would call me in 20 minutes earlier to do my xrays, then I would see the doc. Apparently I had to go on my own over to radiology and do the xrays. That’s a very important piece of information they neglected to tell me. What the heck. The doc basically tells me he can’t really do much since he doesn’t have the xrays as a baseline. He still suspects runner’s knee and doesn’t think an MRI is necessary. He tells me I can go take the xrays now and wait to see him – though obviously he has appointments booked – that I can wait for someone to cancel. Sorry doc, I have to work, I don’t have all day to sit around. He told me I could schedule another appointment. I was like, it took me a month to get this appointment, is it going to take another month? He’s like, well thanksgiving is next week, then I’m on vacation the following week – so yeah.
SIGH. What a waste of my freaking time and money. After waiting a month for this appointment – I don’t get a whole lot out of it. I still have to go back. My appointment is in 3 weeks. Not as bad as I thought but still. I made another PT appointment so I’m back to that.
Got my xrays done today. Funny thing is I could have gotten them done at anytime in the past month but they neglected to tell me that.
Sharp, you suck.
The only redemption you had was from this morning when you saw me and took my xrays before you opened. That was greatly appreciated. I guess I just have to wait 3 weeks to see the doc again and get the results now.
I think I know how to heal myself anyway – the knee at least.
Induce Pain
I finally have my appointment with the sports doc tomorrow. I really am hoping and praying that it is productive. My knee has felt a lot better lately compared to a month or two ago. However, it isn’t fully healed yet. I can go downstairs now without pain but it grinds and it grinds loudly. I’ve lost much of my quad muscles so I can’t even lower myself down far down each step so I still pound my right ankle down. The ankle is on and off. Some days it bothers me a lot, other days not so much.
I tried to jog on Sunday and still found myself considerably favoring my right leg (strong knee, broke ankle). I also discovered how weak my left leg has gotten from the lack of use.
Since much of my pain (frequency and intensity) has changed over the past almost 4 months, it was suggested to me that perhaps I should try to use my legs like normal and see what type of pain would be induced. That sounded somewhat like a good idea. After all, it’s not going to help the doctor if I can’t locate the pain when he’s looking at my injuries. So I went on the elliptical for 20 minutes. 20 short minutes yet it felt forever. Right away my knee started clicking with every “step”. Eventually it stopped. I was so tired from 20 min of elliptical. Man, lack of exercise definitely sets you back so much. I did a few squats and a bunch of leg lifts. Induce pain. Success. My ankle is achy and so is my knee.
I think I get to to take xrays tomorrow. I’d rather get an MRI. Nevertheless, I hope I come out satisfied and with a solution. Football season is coming up and I also miss running and playing basketball.
Thoughts of late.
I miss the days of running to clear my mind. I think I’m close…to running that is. Ironically, I have my doctor’s appointment on Wednesday and a lot of my injuries are feeling a lot better than before. Not 100% yet, but somehow it’s getting there.
Today is one of those days. One of those beach days. Go on a walk. Spend some time alone and with God. I hate how it’s dark out after work. :(
mmm, this lack of exercise is making me gain my weight back…in the belly :(
Inspire
I want to inspire people.
I went to a Women’s Leadership meeting today at the office. They’re trying to help build up women in the workforce with mentors, skills, with panels, networking, etc. They want to help women be successful. 4 women of this company have been putting this program together. They took turns speaking and I was thinking, I want to be like those people. Although, it is kind of ironic because I greatly dislike speaking in groups. But I was drawn in by the fact that these were women leaders of the company, they were here to inspire, to help grow, to mentor, to lead, the women of the company. I want to be that type of leader, one that inspires, one that mentors, one that helps others achieve and realize their potential.
I don’t want to just lead but if I ever get there, I want to do it well. Lead well and inspire.
50 Pushups
Back in August, I had my goal to do 50 consecutive pushups by October. I was short by 1. 49!!!! DANG IT. lol.
Self Preservation
Today I felt like throwing it all out the window. All this..resting business.
Work’s having this awesome obstacle challenge course being built in the parking lot in a couple of weeks and it’s free for employees and friends to participate. It looks like so much freaking fun and I want to participate so bad. So add that up to 3 events, 3 FUN events lined up in the coming weeks that I would normally be participating in but can’t because of my stupid injuries.
I’m so close to saying screw it and just participate because I probably could – it’ll just hurt. I guess that’s what I had done for about 3 months before it got so bad that I couldn’t anymore. But man, short term gratification seems so much more enticing than long term gratification sometimes.
The sports med people called and booked an appointment for me for xrays and a visit but the next one available isn’t even until more than a month out. That’s the middle of November, which is too close to January, which is too close for my comfort zone. AND the doc only put in a referral to have my right ankle checked and not my knee. HELLO?! I’m pretty sure nothing is wrong with the bones in my ankle, if there is a bone issue, it’s going to be the knee! The lady is like, yeah they won’t look at the knee since she just put ankle. UH, FAIL!!! So she said she would talk to the doc about the knee. Sheesh.
I need to try really hard to self preserve but I’m close to giving up. I almost wanted to cry. I know. Excessive and dramatic but I think injury or rather inability to do things you love doing makes you a little depressed, add on pmsing, and rainy weather and you got one messed up person. =P
Back to the Drawing Board
Been to PT 5 times now and it hasn’t been getting better but it should says the PT. He’s emailing my doc to get me a referral to a sports doc. Sigh. I don’t know what’s going on and how it got this way.
Some days it feels okay and some days not. Right this very moment, my knee hurts but my ankle feels fine (though my shin hurts).
The PT says they might need more diagnosis. He says they might need to put my ankle in a boot. Wtf. If my ankle is in a boot, how am I supposed to walk because my left knee is jacked. Well, wheelchair? Who wants to push me around? Ok, not funny.
Maybe they’ll take some MRIs for the knee. Dang this is crazy. Better get better by January, that’s all I’m saying.