- I’m getting a weird vibe about things…I don’t like the feeling.
- I’ve been handed a lot of lemons. First, it squirt me in the eye. Now I’m trying to make lemonade.
- Too much undue stress.
- It’s all about circumstances and where you see yourself fit and how it positions yourself. I think I’m in a better position now. Be for me and I’ll be for you. Perhaps an answered prayer in disguise.
- I finally know what it feels like to crave working out.
- It’s strange that the presence of some people can set the tone in the room.
- Don’t know how I’m going to keep working out since it’s getting dark earlier now.
- I’d like to put my printed photos in my album or picture frames.
- I should really set up the printer.
- I think I’m becoming more insensitive.
- Praying that my bro gets a job.
- I’m such a brand whore when it comes to athletic apparel.
- Too many things to manage in life, too many people to deal with.
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2005 Year in Review
It’s interesting to look at thoughts from the past…
2005
Another year is coming to an end. It can be said again and again and it will still hold true: time flies by quickly. We go through each day and just go through the motions. Have you ever stopped to just think about it? Have you ever thought about how each and every encounter, occasion, thought, moment, feeling, and situation effected you then and affects you now? Think about where you are now, where you are in mind, in spirit, and physically. Every learning experience good or bad has molded you and shaped you and brought you to today. Everything that happened happened for a reason. Your personality, your beliefs, your ideas, they have built up throughout the years and put you here and now.
I usually don’t think of the year going by as from January to December. I always thought about the year going by according to the school year. School starts in September and a whole year has passed when summer is over and school is in session again. Sometimes I think about the year in terms of birthdays. It’s hard for me to think about the year of 2005 starting in January and ending now in December. But I want to think about this year like that. I want to relive the memories so that I can document what I experienced and what I learned this year. This year has been a learning experience filled with realizations and confirmations. My reflections of this past year (in no particular order): -Sometimes you are put in a situation to see how you can deal with it. Life is… Life is also… Goodbye 2005. Welcome 2006. |
Xanga Xanga
I unlocked my super old xanga!! Going through all these super old posts from college and post-college is quite interesting. I’m going to repost old stuff from there over here. Haha.
Friday, October 21, 2005
You own the curb…
The other day when I arrived at work I had to park around the corner along the curb because there was no parking left across the street. The same day when I was leaving work and walking to my car, a little light blue paper placed snugly under my windshield wipers caught my eye. The first thought to my mind? A ticket? No, I can’t get a ticket, its not Monday or Tuesday (since you can’t park there on one of those days). I grab the paper and read it as I get into my car. It said, “There is room for two cars in this parking lot (I’m assuming they meant the curb) PLEASE use only one.” I never walked around behind my car to see how much room was left, but I did notice that I only had about 2 feet in front of me. Perhaps I could have pulled my car up a little. I still think a car could have fit behind me. But it doesn’t matter. If I took up two spots then “my bad”. I didn’t mean to. I wasn’t really thinking about if another car could fit. But I did pull up as far up to the driveway as I could see from my car. So, my mistake. Sorry. The thing that amuses me is what gives them or anyone at all the right to put a note on my car? No, I’m not mad at all or upset in the least bit. I just find it amusing. I didn’t realize that they owned the curb. Perhaps it was just a slight polite gesture at reminding me for future occasions to make sure I leave room for another car. If that was the case, then it did work, because this morning when I had to park along the curb, I looked to see if another car would fit. Or perhaps they were just upset that they could not park directly in front of their residence. Who knows? But they own the curb. Do you?
Flood
I went to Flood this morning with some friends and I was reminded how much I really liked Flood. I used to go to Flood back in college and really really enjoyed it. I also love Flood’s worship.
Funny thing is that Matt Hammett’s message was based on the same passage that we had at Exodus last week and even the first two worship songs were the same!
Oh yeah, hooray for free coffee!
Talk to Me Sign
LA and her mom seem to have this “sign” on their forehead that says “talk to me”. It must be true because people always randomly start talking to them! I would like to tell LA to please keep her sign and not pass it to me because I think yesterday I was wearing the sign.
A few of us hit up Jamba yesterday after football. We had all ordered drinks and I started to head towards the restroom so I could wash my hands. However, I never made it there. I was maybe two steps away when this girl goes, “what does your shirt say?”. I had happened to be wearing the red Hope Harvest shirt from the ultimate tourney last year. “Hope Harvest International,” I reply. I go on and explain to her what it was and she asks, “How can I help? Do you have a business card or something?” I told her I could give her the URL. She proceeded to tell me she goes to Flood. Coincidentally, I had been planning on going to Flood tomorrow (which is now today). So I mentioned that. She told me about how great Matt Hammett was. She told me about the Halloween event they were having and were how they were looking for volunteers and gave me a flyer. Then she said that she normally goes to Flood at the evening services but would go at the morning service if that’s when I was going. She told me she has unlimited texts and to text or call her or email or facebook her. She wrote down all her info.
Then, she seemingly told me her whole life story. How she was stuck out here in San Diego but was from Massachusetts. How she was staying with her ex-boyfriend in this other (older) guy’s house (who was standing next to her at Jamba) and that this other guy buys all their groceries and how he was so kind. And how she really believes in paying in forward even though it has screwed her in the past. How she let somebody or people stay at her house before and they stole all her sound equipment which was worth $15,000. But even though sometimes you get screwed by helping others, sometimes you don’t, and it’s important to give and pay it forward. She said she has two cats or dogs (I can’t remember anymore) and a girl duck named Charlie that is just like the Aflac duck. And on and on and on she went. I was trying hard to pay attention but admittedly I had lost focus a few times. All the while, my drink was called and C. just walked by and handed me my drink. And on and on she went. She said she just wants to pay it forward cause she knows God will take care of her and she doesn’t have to worry because even the birds don’t worry about what they will eat referring to Matthew 6:25-27. She kept talking about giving and giving and giving and not expecting anything back. And I said, “Yep, that’s the beauty of grace.”
And then she wanted my information, but I was getting this weird vibe from her. I had actually tried to go a couple times but she just kept going and going. And I know for you guys reading it, it might not actually sound that odd or strange, but trust me, it didn’t start out that strange, but it got kinda strange. So I gave her my name, email, and phone number. In hindsight, I shouldn’t have given her my phone number and I should have given her some other email address. But I didn’t give her my fb. She was like, yeah, let me know so I can come to flood and talk to you. Finally, the 10lbs (exaggerating) of wheatgrass she had ordered was ready and off they went.
So my attempt to go and wash my hands turned into a 20 minute conversation/encounter. It was quite random and strange. I don’t think I like the “Talk to Me Sign.” Someone please take it from me.
Running is tough
I ran 3 times this week for a total of 7.5 miles. Running is tough. The hill on nobel is difficult the first time up and even more difficult the second time up. Feels like it takes forever. And I always am so out of breath once I reach the top that I slow that quite a bit to rest and catch my breath. During the run I always want to stop, especially after the first mile but kind of force myself to keep going. It’s been good so far. I think each time I’ve run it faster. I’m starting to kind of crave these workouts even though I don’t enjoy the running part when I’m doing it.
However, I feel good afterwards. Like right now, I feel pretty good. I also feel much stronger and think that I am in much better shape than I’ve been in awhile. The last time I tried to run on a regular basis was that mini training I did for a 5K back in 2006. Also, while I’m working out, I don’t think of anything else. It really helps clear the mind which is good since I’ve been pretty stressed out lately.
I really hope I can keep this up but my first challenge will be next week since C. will be out of town. I’ll have to try to really hard to go on my own but I know I easily succumb to laziness. I’m also fighting daylight which means to make it to the workout, I need to start by 6pm.
Still need to work on the situps though. It takes me way too long to do them and I get out of breath and tired after 8. Haha. Weak.
Hey, at least this will hopefully keep me from cramping in football.
Consider This
The past 3 days have been a bit crazy but today topped it off. I still can’t believe the things that happen, the effort involved, the extreme ridiculousness of things people do just to get what they want. They’ll do it at the expense of others. They don’t think, they don’t consult, they don’t inform.
Thanks for flinging me into an bad position for your / his sake.
Things that you don’t think can happen, happen. Any idea of how things should be? Well, throw that all out the window because you have no idea. It’s a new world. It takes adaptation, it takes openness, it takes patience, it takes some tough skin, a different breed of people, and a thick skin.
Please think before you act, please consider the consequences, please consider someone else because this time it really isn’t about you, it’s about me.
If you value someone, you should respect them, you should not hold out, you should not lead them on, you should ask for their opinion, you should consider them.
It’s wearing thin, it really is. This is not what I want.
Workout
I like working out. Well, I like to think that I like working out until I’m actually in the middle of working out…haha. But maybe I secretly like it. I’ve worked out/ran more this year than I have in many many years. Even though we did a bit of “bootcamp” last year, we never really ran ran. I think I’ve improved quite a bit with running which is a really good thing. It’s also satisfying to see progress. I remember one of the first times I tried to workout with C. and I barely ran 1 mile (with a hill) and then tried to run another (w/o hill) and it was so difficult. Those few beach runs we did, I also struggled quite a bit and they were for just over a mile. The longest run I did was at Lake Miramar with F. where we tried to run a 5k but failed cause we started too far in the route. I think we ran about 2.7 miles and I had taken a short walking break at the half way point.
Last week I ran with C. and did the usual nobel field loop twice but I also walked a little after 1 loop. Yesterday, we did it again and I did the whole two loops without walking! I thought it was only 2 miles but it was actually just short of 2.5 miles!! Oh, and the last part was a sprint to the finish which left me huffing and puffing. Yesterday’s workout was really tiring. I didn’t realize that running actually uses up some of your arm energy. After 2.5 miles we tossed the football around for about 10 minutes. Then we did pushups, situps (which I still suck at but am getting better at), dips, plank, bench pushups, lunges, and some knee raise thing. My arms were dead after the 3 arm exercises and it’s not like we did THAT many of them. I was definitely struggling with the dips and bench pushups. It was a tough workout, although C. says it was just ok. Haha. Well, it was good and difficult which is what I wanted.
I think working out with C. is good because she’s in better shape so she can push me more. If it was up to me, I’d quit running after like 200 meters – like I did that one time I tried to run near the neighborhood. I think I like it when someone is telling me what to do for a workout. It’s easier and it’s more motivating.
Too bad the days are getting short – not sure what’s going to happen once there is no daylight when I get off from work. :(
Friendship Development
Have you ever thought about how friendships form? This is something I think of on occasion. How did I become friends with so and so? How are some friendships stronger than others? And then there are just some people you just aren’t friends with.
I think what makes friendships work as well as any type of relationship is vulnerability. You have to be willing to open yourself up, reveal yourself, to establish trust. If you can’t do this, I think it’s hard to become real friends. Right..? Think of all the people you consider good friends, whether new or old, you have to be open to letting people know you and they have to as well.
I definitely have friends that are close and friends that aren’t as close. And then there are some people I don’t really want to be friends with. Developing friendships really takes effort and investment. Investment in people.
Eh..random thoughts.
Beach Palooza
A bunch of us drove up to Long Beach this past weekend for the Beach Palooza. Let me tell you, running on soft sand majorly sucks. Not that I really trained hard for this 5K obstacle course but we did want to make an attempt to complete it in a somewhat reasonable time. The last 5k obstacle course we did was Warrior Dash where we clocked in a slow time due to the fact that everyone waited for everyone. Haha. This time around we wanted to make an attempt. I think my “training” went as far as running maybe once a month on average. The most I had run in one duration was roughly 2.7 miles. But man, running on the soft sand was so hard! I couldn’t do it for very long at all. And the obstacles were so far apart and then they weren’t even as cool or fun. Boo. I gave Beach Palooza pretty bad reviews in their survey, haha. But it was still fun to just hang out with everyone, get a pineapple hat, and t-shirt.
I also bumped into 2 people from high school that I haven’t seen since…high school. Random!
I should probably keep up with some running but its going to be hard.
And I’m really only blogging about this so I can look back and remember what I did in 2011. Haha.