- I couldn’t sleep the other night because all I could think about was football. I can’t believe the tourney is in 3 weeks. 3 weeks! Yikes.
- I bought a how to draw cartoon animals book. I like drawing even though I’m not that good at it.
- Daylight Savings – no more daylight :( I like daylight. Sad times.
- Can’t believe the holidays are coming up. Time to gift shop though I’m bad at it.
- Mervyn’s and Linen-n-Things is closing. That means great deals! Time to shop even more.
Author Archives: The Yellow Forest
A Different World
Based on a true story. Excuse the one curse word, it is necessary to fit the story.
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5 days a week I drive into an unwelcoming part of town. I go past the same old park on the right and the run down apartments on the left. Truants, transients, hoodlums, alcoholics anonymous, and groups of strange people fill the park. The old man is always sitting out in his chair on the sidewalk every morning. I wonder if he recognizes the same old white car that passes by nearly every day. As I’m getting closer to the parking spots, I am very aware of the people that are around, whether they are gathered at the door of the gym, walking around, or just sitting in their cars. I pull into my spot and sit there for a moment. I always look around before I get out. I shut the doors and quickly lock my car and scurry across the street. I walk on the same old brick path, the one covered with flies. Sometimes I wonder if there’s really a dead body hidden beneath those bricks. Why else would over 50 flies be hovering around and sitting on the bricks every single day. The path goes straight then turns to the right, I always feel a little safer once I turn the corner. Once I’m inside I’m fine. The apartment upstairs used to be a hideout and gathering for druggies. Fallen syringes have been found on the first floor. It’s always so dark and old in here. The carpet is dark brown. The room is dark. Piles of paper, magazines, and junk surround the apartment, never ceasing to move. A dysfunctional TV sits in the corner. We never use the light and cardboard sheets block off the windows. The blinds are dusty. Sometimes I wonder what kind of bugs might be on the floor that I can’t see. Sometimes baby spiders crawl on my desk. The windowsill is left with piles of what the termites left. Touch the cardboard and spiders crawl out. The trashcan is always filled to the brim with food. Sometimes it stinks. Sometimes flies are hovering. Yellow stained ceilings lie above my head. The bathroom isn’t pretty but it’s functional. The tub in the bathroom is covered in a layer of black dust with a dead cockroach lying on its back. Nearly every corner of the floor has a spider and its web. The floor is covered in hair. The toilet seat is cracked and shit stains fill the interior of the toilet. The sink is outside of the bathroom. There are never any paper towels to dry your hands. There are dusty blue towels hanging on the racks. There’s an old company shirt that hangs next to the towels. The kitchen is cramped. The trashcans are always filled with hovering flies, similar but worse than the one in the room. The sink is dirty, filled with old dishes that have been sitting there for days. The sponge has been soaked in the same water for months. The garbage disposal is never used. The refrigerator is filled with foods that are months old just sitting in the back with its juices seeping and mold growing. The chairs at the conference table are old and torn. The closet in the room is filled with junk, papers of all kinds, boxes, and trash. Going to lunch is the best time to get away. Sometimes I like going farther away so that I don’t have to be reminded of where I am. I always try to be wary of who’s around when I step out into the streets. There have been too many instances of disturbing encounters. When going to and from my car I always roll the lanyard around my right hand with it looped in my thumb. This lets me have my keys out so I can get into the car faster. But it also serves as a weapon that I can fling if needed. Sometimes keys are held in a way where the sharp side is sticking out. Sometimes I fear for my life when I have to walk to my car. The streets are filled with a unique group of people. Sometimes I wonder if my car will still be there when I return. People drive at high speeds and don’t obey stop signs. There’s a school across the street, sometimes I wish more kids were around because it makes me feel safer if kids can be outside playing and not worrying. The neighbors are single mothers who have previously been in prison. The dumpsters in the back alley are frequented. When day leaves and night comes, hookers line the streets. Restaurants and stores are run down. It’s surprising if sirens aren’t heard often. It’s surprising if no gunshots are heard. I’ve seen people arguing on the street where one person lifted up his shirt to reveal a concealed weapon tucked into his waistband. The local Subway has bulletproof glass surrounding the counter. Sometimes I see women walking alone in the area and I pray for them. I pray for their safety. I pray for mine. Welcome to my 9 to 5.
It’s All About the Game…Apparently
It was a playoff game, win and we go to the championship, lose and we go home and try again next season. The game was close the first half, then we got tired. They had 8 people, we only had 5. They were quick, we were not. And slowly they pulled away. We were tired.
I could tell that the girl on our team was getting frustrated. She was good at basketball. She started to mutter things and she tried to take the ball down and shoot each time, on her own. The game ended. People were pissed. And one by one each left without saying goodbye. No see you later. No see you next season. No good job. Just gone.
It was like wow, what kind of team are we? We are not friends. We don’t know anything about each other or seem to care. It was pretty sad. I mean, when it comes down to it, does it really matter that we lost? I mean it sucks, but we’re all still people and people should care about each other or at least act in a civilized manner. No one needs to be excessively friendly, but it doesn’t hurt to acknowledge each other.
Ramblings
I should try to write more in my blog whether or not I deem it “good reading material”, at least it will be something.
I saw this sign at someone’s desk at work today: “Your lack of planning does not constitute an emergency on my part.” I love it. So true, so true.
Another guy I know has his last day at work tomorrow. He got laid off. I don’t know him well, but I know him enough to chit chat. He emailed everyone to say that he was leaving and included a few verses in there. And I was thinking woah, is he a Christian? I didn’t know that. That’s pretty neat. And so I bumped into him on my way out today and I asked him if he was. It’s amazing, it’s almost like there is this instant connection to someone when you meet them and find out they share the same beliefs as you. Pretty cool.
Vending Machine Ripoff
Vending machines are brilliant. They are brilliant for the people who own them and horrible for the people who use them. Snacks and drinks from vending machines are such a ripoff, yet we all buy from them simply because they are so convenient.
But I’m beginning to realize that it is sooo expensive when it adds up. Even though I KNOW I’m not getting a good deal, I still buy something. Almost everyday, yes, I said EVERYDAY, I buy a soda from the vending machine for lunch. That’s $0.65, 5 days a week, which is equivalent to $3.25 a week for 5 sodas. I could go to the market and buy a 12 pack for that price. But I don’t. Why?
Well, everytime I go into the market and I don’t see the soda on sale for at least under $3.50, I don’t buy it. I don’t buy it because I think its expensive. But silly me, as long as the price for one soda is cheaper than $0.65 than its worth it!
Note to self: buy soda from the market.
Not Enough Time
I’ve been feeling overwhelmed lately. I feel like there’s not enough time. There are so many things that I am trying to do, so many things I want to do, but it doesn’t seem like I have enough time.
Trust
It’s simple, right? Just don’t worry because worrying doesn’t do anything for anyone except cause unnecessary stress. It’s a simple idea. Alot of things are very simple to think about, easy to say, easy to understand, but very difficult for me to do.
I’m at the point again where I really need to just let go. I need to let go, worry-less, and trust more and I know by not doing that it shows how little faith I have. I need to let go and just let God lead me and take me to where he wants me next and stop trying to control everything. I need to stop worrying because if something is in God’s plan for me, He’ll get me there. I just need to put all of my trust and control in Him. And if all these things are true, which they are, then really it is quite simple. So, what is my problem?
I need to just let things play out. Stop worrying about each and every move, stop worrying about what if this happens and this happens. After all, so far things have always turned out okay.
So I’m constantly learning to give up control and trust more. Trust.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths. -Proverbs 3:5-6
I’m not sick but I’m not well
Things that Bother Me
when people touch my monitor…
when people treat me like i am their secretary..
And We’re Back
Been on hiatus for a bit.
Bad Signs..
The company sends out an email saying, “now that everyone has their photo badge….” (note: we took photos for our badges a few months ago) I reply to the email saying, “I don’t have my photo badge, did everyone get theirs?” They basically DELETED my photo from the system. Great… AND THEN, 2 days later, my badge doesn’t even work! I can’t get into the building. I stand waiting in the stairwell door on the 2nd floor for like 5 minutes hoping someone will go downstairs, but nothing. So I finally call my coworker and he lets me in. My badge doesn’t work for about 3 days, what a pain. But alas, they gave me my new photo badge.
And another thing…
I saw this lady who doesn’t watch her hands after using the bathroom stick her hands in the ice machine. Sick. They have tongs for a reason. I don’t know if I’ll ever use the ice again. Sick.