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Amazing Transformation
My desk at work is out in the open, meaning I can pretty much see everyone that walks by. Today, out of the corner of my eye, I saw this lady that I didn’t recognize start to walk by, but next thing you know she’s walking towards me. She’s like, “hey!” And I look at her and am trying to figure out who she is because she clearly knows me! As soon as she starts talking, I recognize her by her voice. I didn’t recognize her by her looks because she must have lost 100lbs! It was crazy. She’s a developer for the company I work at but telecommutes from a different state. She only comes into the office maybe once or twice a year, so the last time I had seen her was some time ago. It’s amazing how people can transform. I can’t believe how much weight she lost. She looks good. Good for her. I’m sure it was difficult. Craziness.
Ripoff
Every time we go and eat out for lunch across the street, I always want to go to baskin robbins. But, I am either too full or don’t know what to get. That’s not the only problem. The major problem is that every time I decide to actually go in there and look, I end up leaving because the prices are ridiculous! $3 for ONE scoop of ice cream? Are you kidding me? I can buy a half gallon. Almost $5 for a SMALL drink? I don’t think I will ever get any ice cream there. But I like their jamocha and chocolate chip. :(
Three Reasons Why…
The trees are bending in the angry wind that blows
Those big black clouds look like they’re going to explode
I made this boat for us to ride until the storm goes away
I’ll give you three reasons why it’s time to be afraid
One, I’ve never sailed before
Two, never navigated a storm
Three, I look so small compared to all of these waves.
[Chorus:]
I will see the rain go away, see the rainbow
The light of blue is bursting through the grey and
I will hear the thunder roll away
I am seasick as lay limp across this rail
Nowhere to go but here and I feel like I am in jail
We’ve been here forty days and nites
Over this one window we fight
And now I hear Him give three reasons why not to complain
One, He didn’t let me drown
Two, not a single leak was found
Three, we just got evidence we’re headed for some solid ground.
[Chorus]
The night is followed, the night is swallowed by the day
The night is followed, the night is swallowed by the day.
See The Rain (Go Away) – Seven Places
Is this a Good Thing?
Today, someone thought I was 18. Wow, that’s a first.
Unwanted Help
What is wrong with people? Thousands of people are hungry and homeless, but the government is not allowing rescue workers to come into Myanmar. How dumb is that? There are so many people with way more resources and knowledge about helping people after a natural disaster than the country itself. But no, they won’t let people in to help. These people are willing to help. These people have been through things like this before and have the experience. They know the best way to help and they have the man-power to do it. But because of stupid politics, they aren’t allowed to help. Not only that, the officials in Myanmar are keeping all the good food and supplies for themselves, while leaving the people who truly need it with nothing. We’re talking about people here. People! People’s lives. They would rather have people die than deal with the fact that they are letting their “enemy” help? Who cares about politics? What about people’s lives? These are people, the same as you, when it comes down to it, we’re all the same. The same. What if it was you? Different story right? “But it’s not.” That’s baloney. So dumb.
Please Hurry
Why are people so impatient these days? Observing people being impatient along with the intense emotions that go along with it seem to irritate me just a little bit. Ok, so someone or something is going slow or whatever, go ahead and complain a little, but no need to get upset, right? I mean, yes, the bus may be in the way because its letting people get off, but is it really THAT bad to wait a little bit? I mean, are you in a rush? And yes, there is a long wait to get seated and even to get the food, but everyone else is waiting too! You’ve been waiting a long time, you’re hungry, but so are all the other people.
So what makes people more impatient? I think we are spoiled. We’re too used to this idea of a need for speed. Everything nowadays must be faster and better, more efficient. Else, oh my, we might have some extra time to do something else? Relax? Enjoy each other company? Do other things we like? Yeah, scary thought I know.
Learning to Trust
I always hear about people feeling God’s presence in their lives and how he’s doing this and that but I never really had anything “good” to say until today. What happened may not really seem like a big deal to other people but it was a big deal to me. I have issues with being in small groups and sharing or praying. I don’t feel comfortable speaking in groups and I’m always too concerned about what people will think about what I say. Really it shouldn’t matter because it should be all about Him. But anyway, in all the past situations that I have been in where there is a possibility that I will have to be in a small group to pray or share something, it has never really made it to my turn. Today, I had a meeting with some people and they were going around praying and I was getting pretty nervous about it because there were so few of us, so surely everyone would take a turn. As it went around the room, I was getting more and more anxious and realized that okay, I just need to take my turn. And just as I’m about to go, I think I even started to say the words, someone else went and closed. It didn’t hit me at the moment. But shortly after, I was amazed. He is truly amazing. When it comes to something like this, where it should be solely on Him and He is still merciful enough to keep me from doing something where I feel so anxious, that is just amazing. It’s not because its just this one time, its nearly every single time.
I think this was a little lesson on trust. I know I have trust issues and I want to be able to trust so bad, but I have this inner battle that I’m struggling with. I’ve been praying that He teaches me to trust Him because I want to. But I need to do it in baby steps. Tonight’s events was totally Him saying, look at what I can do for you, all you need to do is trust and it’ll turn out okay.
Learning to trust…
I Imagine You to Look Like…
Ever have to communicate with someone a lot whether over the phone or via email but you’ve never met them before? Whenever this happens or even if people are constantly telling me stories about people I’ve never met, I start to create a picture in my mind of what they might look like. But when I actually meet the people, its often very different from what I had in mind.
Some vendors are going to be on-site this week. One of them I talk to every week and email nearly every day. The other I haven’t really talked to much. But I’ve already got an idea placed in my mind of what he looks like by the way his voice sounds and his personality. It’ll be interesting when I meet him. The last time I met with a vendor, he looked completely different than I had imagined so it was quite a shock to me because I already had a picture in my mind. We’ll see what happens.
Guitaring
I want to be able to play guitar. I’m not talking about how I know how to play piano, where I can play a few random things here and there and not be able to play a whole song. I want to be able to pick up a guitar and bust out songs. I want to play songs that sound cool or that people know. My motivation in learning how to play has been on and off. Often times, I’m just not that motivated because I feel like I can’t play much. However, after watching people play, its just soooo cool that it makes me want to play. Plus it also looks really easy! But in reality, its not that easy…haha. I am once again a little more motivated to play. :)
I want to be a guitar hero…