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06.16.07
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My Bro

I went to my brother’s high school graduation the other day. It’s crazy to think that its been quite a few years since I graduated high school. Just being there made me so happy. I’m so proud of him. I also thought it was pretty neat that in the program, his name was listed in the schedule of events. He, as the president of the entertainment unit, directed the band for the alma mater, one last time. It was good to see him. Congratulations bro, I know you’ll do great things!

06.10.07
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Anticipation

It’s strange to think that things people normally do are so difficult for me to do. The thought of and anticipation of things to come really has an effect on me. The thought lingered in the back of my mind all week. I think I spent most of yesterday going through the motions of today in my head. It kind of took me away from the real world. I was just lost in thought, zoned out. And even as I went to bed, I didn’t know if I would make it. And even as my alarm went off this morning, I still didn’t know if I would make it. Somehow I made it. I took a small jump and made it. I was nervous and freaking out just a little bit. But by the end, I was feeling pretty good. It was kind of nice actually. Now to get worked up about the anticipation of the next…

05.28.07
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Sleepless Night

It felt like my mind was on speed last night as I laid in bed. I was lost in thought and I was lost in visuals. It took the cold breeze from the open window to hit me before I realized that I was awake, lying awake with my eyes wide open in the dark. I could not sleep and I could not shut my eyes. In the previous moment, it felt like my eyes were closed, like I was thinking, and dreaming. I was having flashbacks to past events, I was writing stories in my head, I was thinking about a very random assortment of things ranging from people, places, situations, and more. It was quite strange. I haven’t experienced something like that in a long while. I couldn’t think of why I couldn’t fall asleep. I couldn’t pinpoint if something was bothering me or if I slept too much or any of the sort. I turned the light on and sat around for a little bit, did this about 3 or 4 times. Approximately an hour more of lying in the dark wide awake, I was able to fall asleep. I hope this does not happen again tonight.

05.27.07
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Comfort of Knowing

Imagine something that you do all the time. It may not be your favorite thing and its not the worse although you dislike it more than you like it. And you have to do it because you somehow inherited it. But suddenly its being stripped away from you. Which is supposed to be a good thing, but it leaves you feeling a little useless. It doesn’t make you feel as whole because that part of you was so ingrained and now its going away. But it’s going to be good. It’s what I want. But right now, it makes me feel less.

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listening to: Augustana/Boston