I finally went to the doctor after my hypocrappo (Still calling it that because hypercrapper sounds more bathroom related than hypocrappo and hypercrappo doesn’t flow well and hypercrapper sounds even more bathroom related than the first one!) flare up. I got my blood test on Tuesday and the levels were still out of range :( they were closer, but not in range yet. I have been feeling much much better. Still have trembling, a few headaches once in awhile, still have a very enlarged thyroid (I can see it and feel it) and still feel weak (but that’s cause I lost all my muscles). But I have much more energy now and my heart is not racing so that’s really good. Anyway, the nurse that took my bp and weighed me was cool. Every time I go to the doctor, I really notice whether or not the people are friendly. This girl was cool, she was very talkative and she even noticed my birthday was in a few weeks and wished me a happy early birthday. Other nurses just take your vitals and then don’t say anything. As much as I’m afraid of people talking to me I find it a much better experience when the nurses and doctors are friendly. The doc came in and it was cool that he reviewed my chart before because the first thing he said to me was, “are you feeling better?” like he knew I was feeling horrible. Well he did know because I got to email him. It’s so cool to be able to email questions and concerns to the doctor! Anyway, he showed me my lab work and it showed that everything was normal last year after April all the way to October. Then something crazy happened between October and February when my hypocrappo went nuts!! He’s like what happened here? Did something different happen? Did you stop your meds? Did you miss a few weeks? Did you have a lot of stress? I was thinking that I missed a dose here and there but nothing significant. Stress, I think I’m always stressed about work, maybe it was particularly stressful at that time. He said it was weird that it shot up so high. Oh yes, whenever I go to the doctor and see the doctor, I’m always nervous. So I always get very warm and start to sweat, which made me even more nervous because the doctor had to feel my neck and I was concerned that it would be gross because I was sweating and yadadada. Anyway, so he checked the thyroid said it was still very swollen, checked my trembling, still trembling quite a bit, examined my eyes (still irritated but unknown if its contacts or from hypocrappo). So, I’m supposed to get another blood test in a few weeks and I need to see an ophthalmologist to make sure my eyes aren’t all jacked from it. I had another theory on why things could have gotten out of control. I had started to eat out very very very frequently and when you eat out those places are extremely ridiculously high in sodium. The common type of sodium used contains iodine. Iodine is like fuel for fire when it comes to triggering the thyroid. I asked the doc about this and he said the meds should have been able to handle it and that maybe my dosage wasn’t enough back then. But I don’t know, I still think its valid. At home I only use non-iodized salt and I haven’t cooked very much lately. Well, I’m kind of nervous to see the ophthalmologist, I hope everything is okay. I also hope my levels are back to normal in a few weeks!
Monthly Archives: February 2009
Bathroom Stories
- I used the restroom at the doctor’s today and after you close the door there is a big sign that says. Please LOCK door! LOL! It even says “turn knob” and has an arrow pointing which way. Funny. I wonder if they’ve had many incidents with people walking in on others on accident. I think its confusing because you turn the lock the opposite way of the door not towards the door like normal. Maybe people thought they locked the door when they didn’t!
- Today at work, I walked into a stall and someone peed and didnt flush and the seat cover was still half way on the seat and in the toilet. Gross.
- Yesterday at work, I walked into the restroom and this older lady walked out of the stall and was like, can you help me? I was like, uh..? with? She was wearing slacks with a side zipper and the zipper was caught on the fabric and she couldn’t unzip it to use the restroom. Uh, AWKWARD!!!! Good thing no one walked in when I was helping her.
The end.
Every Black Cloud Has a Silver Lining
A few weeks ago someone told me that one of the people at my work was diagnosed with cancer. The word cancer scares me. To hear about people having cancer makes me sad because when I think about it, everyone I’ve heard about or read about with it did not survive it. Cancer seems so agressive to me and it kind of just takes over. So every time I saw this lady, I felt sad for her. She didn’t know that I knew and she’d talk and seem normal and I just felt sad. But she seems just fine. I saw her today and she told me that she was just diagnosed with stage 1 breast cancer. Yet, she didn’t seem to feel too sorry for myself. In fact she had a cheerful disposition. She said that everything was going to be alright, that it was good they caught it early, and that she’s going to do the treatment and while it may be sucky for awhile, she was going to be okay. That reminded me that people do beat cancer, many people have beat it. It was good that she was optimistic about things. And while I was feeling sad for her, I am now thinking that I should be positive too. So while cancer may be this black cloud for this lady, there is a silver lining because she can beat it. Every black cloud has a silver lining.
Famous Dave’s
There’s this BBQ place up in Vista that is pretty good! I went there on Friday night and I really enjoyed the food. It’s a little bit far to go eat, but I think it’s worth it. The prices are what you would expect of a BBQ place. I ordered a half rack of ribs and a side of meat (you get to pick from things like, chicken, shredded prok, brisket, etc) and you get 2 sides and a corn bread. I think that was around $20. I still have leftovers! Yum! I want to go there AGAIN!
Reviews
It’s that time of year again – yearly performance reviews. We have to submit a self-assessment and our manager also submits an assessment on us. Hmm, let’s see, this is kind of odd. If I’m evaluating myself on my performance which dictates my possibility of a raise or promotion of any sort or even if it is purely just to rate my performance, I should rate myself nothing lower than outstanding. To rate myself anything less than outstanding is to say that I did not do my job and I did not do it well. I find self evaluations quite interesting, they would like to see how we perceive ourselves. I think it is more important for the manager to submit their evaluation of us in first and then we submit ours in without them being able to change theirs. This way the manager cannot use what we wrote and just copy it. They should think for themselves, create their own opinions, while we create our own. This way the reviews are not biased. To each his own. If we are able to do self-assessments, we should also do peer reviews and manager reviews. How does so and so work in a team project, do they communicate and contribute? Is the manager doing a good job in the perspective of their team members? All of these things should be taken into consideration – otherwise I think a lot of people who do well are never rewarded and those who do poorly are not reprimanded. I turned in my review and marked myself as outstanding in every way possible and I believe I deserve the best raise possible. We’ll see what happens in a few months.
I Still Don’t Like Bars
Went to a bar/pizza place downtown on Friday. I really didn’t know why we had to go to a bar to meet up because if we’re just enjoying each other’s company, we can just go to a restaurant. But I guess that’s what people like to do..go to bars. My coworker drove with me..and I told him that I just wanted to eat and go home. I didn’t want to stay and bar hop or go clubbing or anything. He assured me we would just eat dinner. So then our other friends got there and they brought along people. They drank a lot of beer. I was pretty much done with the place after about 2 hours. But my ride kept ordering more and more beer. And this other guy was really drunk. It was loud in there. Crowded. I really didn’t like it. Random people. Loud, obnoxious people and discussions of things that I deem inappropriate. Random guys talking to us and sitting with us. I really felt so uncomfortable there. I wanted to go home so bad but my ride was having a good time. Plus I didn’t really want to talk to the friends of the friends either. I don’t like talking to people, especially at bars. Sigh. I don’t know why people think its fun to go there. I guess its really to meet people, because if you want to drink you can drink at home. Gah. Bars suck. It was fun for the first hour or two…then it was just lagging on and not fun at all. :(
ALIVE
yes my blog is alive once again!
Weakness
So my symptoms are still very apparent even though the meds have been increased. I’ve lost so much muscle that it is kind of frightening if you think about it. My calves are like mush, if you touch it, even when I’m flexing, its just soft. It’s scary. In fact, all parts of my body where muscles used to be have turned into complete mush. It makes me sad. :(
Blessing in Disguise
I think the fact that the football tournament was postponed yesterday was a blessing in disguise. I really don’t know if I would have been able to last if I had to play a full day of football yesterday. I felt so sick the whole day. I basically slept the night before for about 12 hours. Woke up at 11:30am and felt sick around 1 so slept some more. Then felt sick some more and slept around 5..then went to sleep at 9pm. I kept feeling so nauseous. :( It’s so odd to have lose so much weight from muscle. I feel so weak. It makes me tired to stand and as I tried to carry a box to church today, my legs were shaking. The box had a good weight to it, but it should in no way warrant shaking legs. Anyway, I feel a little better today than yesterday, so it really must be a blessing in disguise. Tournament in about 2 weeks, I hope to be restored then.
Hypocrappo
So my hypocrappo (made up name) is back. I am 3x over the range I am supposed to be in. That’s bad. In hindsight, I should have known, all the signs were there. But, I never put it together, this is not the first time. And everytime, LA is right. I shoulda listened to her when she told me that it must be my hypocrappo. I haven’t been feeling well for a long time now. I keep getting these nauseating feelings and keep being really tired. I have a history of tension headaches that are almost like migraines where I will feel really nauseous and my head will feel really heavy and the only thing that fixes it is sleep. So, I just kept thinking it was that. The doc had told me there was no “cure” per se for tension headaches, just to knock it away by taking massive amounts of IB. But now that I think about the symptoms I’ve had in the past few months, it totally points to hypocrappo. Tiredness. Fatigue. Trembling Hands. Breathlessness. Warm moist skin. Wow. I did notice my hands shaking awhile ago but didn’t think much of it. When I think back to football practice last week, I was winded after not having done very much. I thought I was out of shape. That wasn’t it, it was totally this. This happened a few years ago too when I tried to play sports. It even happened tonight at basketball. I was so exhausted after running for just a bit and could barely catch my breath and I thought my heart was gonna to explode out of my chest. Another symptom, weight loss. I rarely weigh myself, but after my blood test results, I decided to tonight. I normally don’t like to weigh myself at the end of the day after I’ve eaten and consumed so many liquids. Weight at night is usually heavier than in the morning. So if I weighed myself tonight and it was less than what I normally weighed, then truly it was the hypocrappo. Sure enough, I weighed 6lbs less than normal morning weight. I’ll weigh myself again tomorrow morning. Losing more than 5lbs by not doing much is a really bad sign. I think the last time I got really sick, I lost 12lbs. And now that I think of it, 3 times in the past couple of months people have said I looked like I had lost weight! Wow. Well I’m partly glad its raining and the football tournament might be moved, because I don’t think I can make it through the whole thing with the lack of energy I’ve had. I’ve also noticed that I’ve been sleeping super early because I feel so tired. It’s kind of good that I can up the dosage on my meds before the tourney. Even when LA was telling me it was the hypocrappo, I didn’t think it was because I just had a blood test in October and everything was normal, so why would everything get all jacked up so quickly? Now I know I need to really pay attention to symptoms and weigh myself once in awhile to make sure things are normal. Whew.
Although I’ve had to battle with hypocrappo for such a long time, I’m really kind of thankful that it is just that and nothing more serious. And that I should be able to control it with meds. Whew!
I hope my energy is restored soon!