Need to remind myself…
“Don’t let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game.”
“You miss 100% of the shots you don’t take.”
I have a fear of failure and a fear of success at the same time. That sounds like paralyzing fear and it’s a bad thing. Need to remind myself that the camel’s back has been broken and for all those good days there are many more bad ones. Take care of yourself first cause if you don’t watch out for yourself, who will?
Always hold on for too long. Need to get a move on. Move on. Move on. It’s time. Need courage.
I conquered Miramar Lake – and by conquer, I mean that I ran it all the way around non-stop at a pretty good pace even if I say so myself. I was really debating whether I should try to make it around the lake or not. I think the longest run I’ve done prior to today is about 4 miles. I really wanted to make it around the lake – it would be much better than just stopping at one point and turning around. Miramar Lake is also not flat – there aren’t any major hills but it does have some short spurts of ups and downs pretty frequently. My goal was to run it under 52 minutes without stopping. The loop, while most people say is 5 miles is really 4.92 – so just a bit shy. Most of the time I’ve been running – I run at about a 10 minute pace and add on to that when there are hills involved. Recently I’ve been trying to speed up. I was doing pretty well throughout most of the run – always checking at each half mile and mile to make sure I was going under 10 minutes/mile. I must have been going pretty fast early on – I think these were the splits (is that what it’s called?) 1 mile / 9:16; 2 miles / 19:10; 3 miles 29:15; 4 miles 39:30; 4.92 miles; 48:48. I also remember getting kinda tired near the end but really trying to push through.