Dear Unannounced Mission Bowl Date,

You are putting my life to a complete standstill and frankly it’s been getting very frustrating.  =

I’m trying to go to Vegas with my friends but I can’t because I need to hold practices and prepare the team.

I’m trying to go to Taiwan with my family but the plans are sort of up in the air because I’m invested in the team and it doesn’t seem right to lead the team up to the tournament date only to say, “hey I’m going on vacation.”  Plus, I actually want to play too.

I signed up for a half marathon at the end of April – please don’t be that weekend.  I already had a hard time picking one because of how “up in the air” the date is.

People are getting married.  R&J, T&K.  I need to be at those.

I need to get commitments.  I need to order jerseys.  I need to finalize things.  I don’t want to have wasted everyone’s time in the past few months.

I know it’s hard to find a field.  My advice for next year would be to look a year in advance.

But please just announce the date – even if it’s way later.  At least, I can go on with my life.

Yes, the announced date is really putting my life at a standstill.

Please.

Also, that will keep everyone from asking me and asking me and asking me when it is – because I obviously don’t know.

Thanks.

…life is being sucked out of me.  I’m so tired of it.  Sometimes you pick your battles.  Sometimes you defend yourself.  Sometimes you just give in because maybe you don’t care anymore, maybe it isn’t worth fighting for, maybe it doesn’t really matter anyway.

I’m tired…mentally tired.  I’m drained.

There’s no progress and with the way things are going – there isn’t going to be any.

Let’s sit around and twiddle our thumbs.  Let’s fight about nothing.

Don’t complain about how things are when you are in full power to change them – don’t tell me that this and that are all wrong and it shouldn’t be done that way and not have an answer when I ask what way you want to do it and how you’re going to do it.

I’m not really interested in arguing for the sake of arguing either.  I used to fight the good fight.  Now, you can win – do what you want cause I throw in the towel.  It’s not worth it anymore.

So tired of it all…