It’s kind of strange that pain, emotions, and illness are all things that only the person experiencing it can truly understand, feel, and suffer through.  While others may be sympathetic, it’s still rough to fight the battle.  While you may try to explain to other people what is happening, it’s still your battle.

I lost about 6lbs suddenly.  When I tell people this, I’m telling them out of a concern for myself that this is not normal.  The 6lbs lost are not 6lbs of fat loss, it’s 6lbs of lean muscles lost.  Hyperthyroidism attacks your muscles, not your fat.  Almost at an instance, people often tell me how lucky I am and how they wish they could lose weight while doing nothing or how difficult it is for them to lose weight.  Newsflash – it freaking sucks.  Replace freaking with the f-bomb.

Do you know what it feels like to suddenly feel all weak where lifting your arms up and lifting small items up is difficult and tiring?  It not only feels terrible physically, it feels terrible emotionally.  It makes you feel a little helpless that seemingly overnight or over a few days, you can become so weak.

I tried to lift up the 5 gallon water bottle last night to flip it onto the water cooler.  I’ve never really had trouble lifting that before.  It felt so heavy, I actually wasn’t sure if I could successfully flip it.  I felt like I could barely hold it which is vastly different from being able to lug one of those around at least to and from the car.  I still went for the flip because I didn’t want to feel helpless.  It was heavy and difficult but I only made a slight mess.  Now I need to work my muscles back up once I start feeling better.

I feel a little better.  Much better than last week at least but still not 100%.  It’ll take awhile for the meds to kick in.  Last time it got so bad I couldn’t even squeeze my shampoo bottle.  Serious.  Imagine how that feels.  Freaking A.

I hate dealing with all these heath issues.  Still need to find out what’s going on with the node that is still there.  -_-  Jacked thyroid.  Jacked Knee.  Irritated Eyes (might have to do with the thyroid).  Ugh.