I find it odd that someone like me who is so afraid of people, who is such an introvert, so shy, and quiet desires to not be alone.  It almost seems completely out of character.  I hate that feeling of being alone.  Of course some me time is good sometimes, but I think more often than not, I’d rather have people around me and I’d rather interact with them.  I think.  I didn’t have any food in the house and needed to go out to eat.  I tried to find someone to go eat with, but sadly no one was available.  I guess I’m just so used to having people around.  I think one of my fears is to be alone.  To have no one to talk to and to have no one to do anything with.  As talks about how my best friend is probably soon going to be on the other side of the world, I feel sad.  I’m so used to having someone there where I can just be like, “let’s go eat” or “let’s go do this”.  I don’t know what I’m going to do when she’s gone.  It already makes me sad to think about it.  Sigh.