What is wrong with people? Thousands of people are hungry and homeless, but the government is not allowing rescue workers to come into Myanmar. How dumb is that? There are so many people with way more resources and knowledge about helping people after a natural disaster than the country itself. But no, they won’t let people in to help. These people are willing to help. These people have been through things like this before and have the experience. They know the best way to help and they have the man-power to do it. But because of stupid politics, they aren’t allowed to help. Not only that, the officials in Myanmar are keeping all the good food and supplies for themselves, while leaving the people who truly need it with nothing. We’re talking about people here. People! People’s lives. They would rather have people die than deal with the fact that they are letting their “enemy” help? Who cares about politics? What about people’s lives? These are people, the same as you, when it comes down to it, we’re all the same. The same. What if it was you? Different story right? “But it’s not.” That’s baloney. So dumb.

I like to help people…most of the time. I’d say most of the time I’m willing to help people. However, there are times that make me not want to help people. There are times where I feel like people take advantage of what I’m trying to do and I don’t like that. I like to help people that need help. I don’t like it when people who can clearly do something for themselves want you to help simply because you will. I get annoyed when I see people ask someone for help simply because they want the other person to do something for them. If you would like help, fine, no problem. If you would like company, than say so. If you are asking for help just because you want to use someone. That’s not cool.

Frustrated.

Something that bothers me a lot is when people are all angry or pissed off about something and then act like an ass towards other people. It’s fine to be angry and pissed off. It’s fine to mope and it’s also fine to vent. But it’s not okay to be an ass and treat other people like crap. If you need to be alone, say so. If you need to talk to someone, then say so. Whatever it is, just don’t let your emotions make you act like a jerk.

It must be a miracle that I’m not anorexic or something. I already know that I’m not the strongest person inside, but could you imagine if I was that weak, if I had tremendously low self-esteem and self-confidence. That would just be..a disaster?

I blame it on culture because I don’t know, don’t want to, accept the fact that people are oblivious to the fact of what is appropriate and what is not. I blame it on myself because I don’t have the ability to express myself on the outside. I can get all fumed up inside, but I can’t do it on the outside. I am unable to show people how I really feel. I know that’s not good, for me, or for others. But that’s the way it is. So perhaps, I’m causing my own problem or rather, not helping it.

Even so, does that give people the right to blatantly make negative comments about how you look or what you need to change about your body?

Consider it luck or whatever you want to call it that I’m not..ill. That I’m not jumping to solutions of starving myself or puking my brains out or exercising until I pass out.

Or maybe..I should.