People are messy. We’re all messy.

Sunday was SUCH a BLESSING. :)

The conversations / questions always revolve around the same 4 topics when visiting the fam (in no particular order):

1. Buying a house
2. Getting married
3. Appearance
4. Advancing at the workplace

I had a surprisingly relaxing weekend a few weeks ago which is rare.  It’s a little odd because I find myself thinking that I’m busy all the time.  All the time!  Yet, I think I’ve blurred the line of what’s really busy and what’s not.  I think the time spent hanging out with people has blurred into the time spent doing other things like playing basketball or going to Exodus and who knows what else.  And I think that sometimes when I do have a free moment – I immediately think about what can we do today as in what can my friends and I all do today.  Sometimes I do feel like there’s no time to do laundry, haha.  Anyway, a few weeks ago it was relaxing and I was hanging out with people too.  On the one morning, I had an office event at mission bay – it was actually nice out and pretty chill.  Then in the afternoon, I played a casual game of frisbee golf at the neighboring park – that was also super relaxing.  And then to top it off – the next day we went and walked around La Jolla Cove.  I forgot how much I love walking along the beach.  :)  It really puts me in a different mindset.  I always am reminded of how beautiful God’s creation is at the beach and it puts me at such a peaceful state of mind.  I used to always go to the beach and watch the sunset and pray when I was stressed.  So as we were walking around, I found myself unconsciously walking ahead of everyone because I was just so lost in the moment, gazing into the ocean, admiring how beautiful it was and just praising God.

Thinking back to that day actually reminds me of a point A. made that day, that humans are never satisfied.  It is so true.  It’s always too hot, too cold, nothing to do, too many things to do, tired, too much energy, too stressed, too routine, there’s always something.  We need to remember that God can satisfy us in everything.

I always think about things I’m going to write about but I never seem to get around to them…

Some of these things include:

this one relaxing weekend I had a few weeks ago; forgiveness; retreat; and the book I just finished reading.

And now, instead of writing about one of those, I’m writing about writing one of those…haha.

I think often times I want to gather my thoughts and then sit down and have time to write.  However, that never happens.  So I guess, I shouldn’t do that, I should just write whatever I can think of at the time and leave it at that, else it’ll never be written.  So it’s like sharing scattered thoughts which I do frequently vs. having something more planned out.  I guess it doesn’t matter anyway.

It takes a long time to earn, a moment to lose.

The Afters – Lift Me Up

Well then…

When you shoot, throw, hit, a ball – there’s a feeling.  It feels a certain way when you complete that action and you know through that action whether you’ve made a good throw, hit, or shot.  It’s weird when you can’t feel that action.  When you can’t feel that action, you lose the ability to complete an accurate action.

My triceps are still sore.  I think it would have been better by now if I didn’t have to carry Mr. P (story to come) and his big head around for hours on Saturday.  Because my triceps were sore, I couldn’t shoot.  I couldn’t feel the shot.  I couldn’t adjust to shoot correctly because I lost the feeling of how to shoot.  It’s so weird and really lame.  My shots were completely off to the side or short.  Really bad.  Wide open shots.  I can’t believe it.  This happened one other time, after the insanity workout.  My calves were sore for almost 2 weeks and I couldn’t shoot because I couldn’t jump.  All I could feel was pain and not the natural feeling.

It’s such a minor detail but so important.  It’s also interesting because I know the reason why I can’t shoot, yet I can’t control it.  From everyone else’s point of view – well, I must just be having a really off night.

My arm needs to un-sore itself by Wednesday night so I can play better.

I got new bball kicks.  It’s been like 10 years.  I’m usually afraid to buy new shoes for sports.  The reason is that most shoes are super uncomfortable and hurt my feet so when I find a pair that actually fit well and are comfy, I keep for a long time.  I’ve purchased many shoes where I’ve only worn it once or twice to never wear again because they hurt me.  It’s usually the left pinky toe.  Don’t know why.

The thing that sucks is that I don’t really find out that it hurts until I wear them out.  Once you wear them out, you can’t return it.  See, that’s the problem.  Lame.

So, I hope these work.  I’m going to try them out at tomorrow night’s game.  I’m a little skeptical right now since they aren’t super comfy.  Hopefully they break in.