yes my blog is alive once again!

So my symptoms are still very apparent even though the meds have been increased.  I’ve lost so much muscle that it is kind of frightening if you think about it.  My calves are like mush, if you touch it, even when I’m flexing, its just soft.  It’s scary.  In fact, all parts of my body where muscles used to be have turned into complete mush.  It makes me sad. :(

I think the fact that the football tournament was postponed yesterday was a blessing in disguise.  I really don’t know if I would have been able to last if I had to play a full day of football yesterday.  I felt so sick the whole day.  I basically slept the night before for about 12 hours.  Woke up at 11:30am and felt sick around 1 so slept some more.  Then felt sick some more and slept around 5..then went to sleep at 9pm.  I kept feeling so nauseous.  :(  It’s so odd to have lose so much weight from muscle.  I feel so weak.  It makes me tired to stand and as I tried to carry a box to church today, my legs were shaking.  The box had a good weight to it, but it should in no way warrant shaking legs.  Anyway, I feel a little better today than yesterday, so it really must be a blessing in disguise.  Tournament in about 2 weeks, I hope to be restored then.

So my hypocrappo (made up name) is back.  I am 3x over the range I am supposed to be in.  That’s bad.  In hindsight, I should have known, all the signs were there.  But, I never put it together, this is not the first time.  And everytime, LA is right.  I shoulda listened to her when she told me that it must be my hypocrappo.  I haven’t been feeling well for a long time now.  I keep getting these nauseating feelings and keep being really tired.  I have a history of tension headaches that are almost like migraines where I will feel really nauseous and my head will feel really heavy and the only thing that fixes it is sleep.  So, I just kept thinking it was that.  The doc had told me there was no “cure” per se for tension headaches, just to knock it away by taking massive amounts of IB.  But now that I think about the symptoms I’ve had in the past few months, it totally points to hypocrappo.  Tiredness.  Fatigue.  Trembling Hands.  Breathlessness.  Warm moist skin.  Wow.  I did notice my hands shaking awhile ago but didn’t think much of it.  When I think back to football practice last week, I was winded after not having done very much.  I thought I was out of shape.  That wasn’t it, it was totally this.  This happened a few years ago too when I tried to play sports.  It even happened tonight at basketball.  I was so exhausted after running for just a bit and could barely catch my breath and I thought my heart was gonna to explode out of my chest.  Another symptom, weight loss.  I rarely weigh myself, but after my blood test results, I decided to tonight.  I normally don’t like to weigh myself at the end of the day after I’ve eaten and consumed so many liquids.  Weight at night is usually heavier than in the morning.  So if I weighed myself tonight and it was less than what I normally weighed, then truly it was the hypocrappo.  Sure enough, I weighed 6lbs less than normal morning weight.  I’ll weigh myself again tomorrow morning.  Losing more than 5lbs by not doing much is a really bad sign.  I think the last time I got really sick, I lost 12lbs.  And now that I think of it, 3 times in the past couple of months people have said I looked like I had lost weight!  Wow.  Well I’m partly glad its raining and the football tournament might be moved, because I don’t think I can make it through the whole thing with the lack of energy I’ve had.  I’ve also noticed that I’ve been sleeping super early because I feel so tired.  It’s kind of good that I can up the dosage on my meds before the tourney.  Even when LA was telling me it was the hypocrappo, I didn’t think it was because I just had a blood test in October and everything was normal, so why would everything get all jacked up so quickly?  Now I know I need to really pay attention to symptoms and weigh myself once in awhile to make sure things are normal.  Whew.

Although I’ve had to battle with hypocrappo for such a long time, I’m really kind of thankful that it is just that and nothing more serious.  And that I should be able to control it with meds.  Whew!

I hope my energy is restored soon!

1)  At lunch, the person taking my order called me sir and then attempted to read my name off the credit card..whatever she said was not even remotely close nor was it understandable.

2)  In the office, someone did not act very professional, saying things that are inappropriate.

3)  At the doctor, if you are waiting to get lab work done, there is a fairly large sign that gives instructions on what to do.  It goes something along the lines of:

Draw a ticket with duplicate numbers attached.

Tear in half and apply one end of the ticket to your insurance card and place it on the tray around the corner.  Keep the other half.

Sit down and wait for your number to be shown on the screen.

Come to the lab.

This girl failed to read the sign.  She just drew the number and sat down.  Her name will never be called because she never submitted the other side of the number to the tray for the nurses.

Fail.

Ok, its nothing big or anything but still cool.  At work on Friday, the company had a super bowl lunch (aka free lunch), I’m guessing to boost company morale after the layoffs last week.  Anyway, they had 2 games.  For the first game, everyone got a piece of paper with a list of words all scrambled up.  You had to unscramble the most in 3 minutes.  I was sitting at a table where all these people were helping each other.  They were stuck on a bunch, so I told them the answer, then I needed 2, so they told me.  We filled out the whole sheet.  The second game was a word search – find as many words as you can in 3 minutes.

An hour or so after lunch, the people in charge of the games came by my desk and said there was a tie so I had to draw a number – closest to 10 wins.  I drew a 6 or a 9.  Apparently, someone else also drew a 6 or a 9.  They couldn’t tell.  So we had to redraw.  So they left and I had to wait to see if I won.

They took a really long time and I finally saw them nearby and shouted out, “did I win?”  Someone was like no.  Then they had walked behind some file cabinets and I couldn’t see them.  Next thing you know, they all come running at me while blowing a whistle and throwing confetti all over me and my desk.  It turns out that I won both!!!  SWEET!!

I won two gift cards.  One to chilis and one to tgif.  Immediately, people on my team are like, “are you taking us out to lunch next week?”  Then I get a call from one of the people at my table during the game and they said the same thing.  I was kinda confused.  I didn’t know what to do.  Had they won it, I wouldn’t have expected them to share it with me.  After all, I won it by drawing the numbers.  Anyway, I felt so awkward and guilty that I went over to them and was like, here you can split it amongst yourselves.  It was okay since I won 2 cards.  Then they were like, no we’re just kidding, blah blah blah, we don’t want to guilt trip you…blah blah blah.  Whatever.  So I was like, no take it.  Then she was like, ok we’ll all go together.  Ok, $25 is not going to feed 4 people.  Sigh.

Oh well, I still won!  Hooray!

I…bought the Costco $299 2 year membership to 24 hour fitness.  Yet, I have never even been to the 24 by my house.  I suppose now I actually have to go exercise.  Eeks.  Well, I still have to get it activated first.  Wow.  When should I start?  Maybe after next weekend.  Haha.

I’d have to get on a routine.  Go there after work every day aside from the days where I have activities.  Wow, this is crazy.  I hope the gym is nice.  I hope I can do it.  I better do it.  That’s $300 I just dropped.  Wow.

Hey, maybe this way I’ll get in shape, lose 20lbs, and get toned.  :)