I’m scared that something is seriously wrong with me.  It’s been a little over a month and the bump on my neck is still there.  Not only that but I’ve been feeling a lot of pressure in the neck/throat area..  It’s like a constant pressure of a shirt collar too tight or someone lightly gripping your throat.  I can feel that my thyroid is pretty enlarged.  I was thinking that maybe it’s my thyroid acting up – after all, that is one of the systems.  I kept waiting for the pressure to go away.  It hasn’t.  I just got lab work done for my thyroid – everything is still in range.  They want me to lessen the meds even more – they’ve been trying to take me off it.  But something doesn’t feel right.  I’m not sick anymore so if the lymph nodes were fighting infection – they should be done and it should shrink.  The bump on the side is there.  Does it hurt?  It doesn’t hurt per se but it has a dull sensation.  Then I started noticing the way my neck looked in some recent pictures and how it looked like there was a slight bump or enlargement on the right side.  So I look at my neck and sure enough – the right front side is slightly larger than the left side.  Now that is making me even more worried.  Perhaps the cause of the pressure.  I’m really so paranoid right now.  I’m starting to think about whether I have additional symptoms.  Or I’m thinking that stuff which may not be actual symptoms might have something to do with it.  For example, this scab on my arm that won’t seem to heal.  But it could be because I’ve been picking at it – I have picky fingers.  I kept reopening it.  It’s been there for months.  Or that my eyes have been really irritated lately.  I thought it was swimming.  Maybe its my contacts.  Maybe it was getting them sunburned last weekend.  It still is irritating.   I’m searching for other symptoms – fatigue?  I think I’ve been mostly okay.  The doc did tell me I was anemic randomly and to take iron pills.  That’s weird – how can I be anemic.  I eat a lot of red meat.  So that concerns me.  I just want to feel okay – feel normal – be healthy.  Worrying doesn’t do anything.  True but i don’t know how to not worry.  It’s really bothering me.  Google is unfriendly – nearly every type of search is pulling up stuff about cancer.  That really scares me.  That, I think would be the worse thing ever.  That is really what is in the back of my mind every day.  I try to get my mind off of it and not think about it but with the constant pressure in my throat/neck – I can’t not think about it.  Geez, what if I have cancer… Maybe I’m overreacting – I’m really good at that and I’m really good at exaggerating and having wild thoughts and jump to conclusion thoughts and paranoia.  Maybe it’s nothing.  I’m going to the doc again next week.  I’m assuming she’ll just send me to a specialist so I’ll have to wait longer.  I hope there’s nothing seriously wrong with me.  I hope whatever it is, they can cure and fix quickly.  I hope I don’t have cancer.  I realize that none of this is in my control.  None of it.  I need to really focus on God and know that He is in control.  If you read this, please pray for me.  Pray for healing for my body.  Pray for nothing serious.  Pray that they will find out what is wrong and fix it quickly.  Pray for peace of mind – I’m really stressed by this.  Thanks.